Daily Archives April 6, 2010

Public Shame

So here I am, revealing in a blog that I’m pretty sure no one is reading yet, since most don’t even know I’ve created this blog yet, that I am entering contests and submitting things to some pretty lofty goal-ish places, like the New Yorker, Asimov’s and Fantasy Magazine. Hell, I plan to win a Nebula. There, I said it. It’s true.

Of course, we know if I don’t win, since I’ve put it out here on my blog, my shame will be public. Then again, that means the success will be public too.

I’ve submitted my novel WHAT BROTHERS DO to a few agents. The responses have been lukewarm to stock to nonexistent. I can’t say I’m not a little disappointed. I mean, I’ve read the book and I like it. That should be enough, right? Seriously, though, the people I have shared the polished version of the book with have been left speechless. One person started reading it, intent on reading a few chapters and then going to bed. I woke to an IM from her that she sent at five in the morning, reading, “Damn you, Michy.” She had intended to go to bed, but instead, had to stay up to finish reading my book. She cried. She said, also in the same offline IM, “I don’t now cry at books.” Then she damned me again.

So far, of the small circle of people I’ve let read this book, and they are my harshest critics...

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