Monthly Archives June 2011

Author Interview: Lilah Harding~~Erotic Writer

Lilah Harding studied journalism, worked telephone solicitations to earn money while in college, and fell in love for the first time. From that first tumultuous relationship, she learned the arts of suspense, seduction, anticipation, and illusion. Those arts began to inform her writing, as well.

Facing financial hardship, Lilah discovered by a lucky accident that she had a talent for the entertainment industry of phone sex, which paid much better than the traditional telephone sales she’d undertaken. Each client was a story, a play, an intimate theater production for an audience of one.

The story changed for each client, based on their needs and desires. Stories ranged from innocent tryst to experimentation to humiliation or violence...

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The Learning Curve: Life is a Roller Coaster

This is very long… I’m writing it for myself, mostly, a record, a way of purging the thoughts in my head, but also, I know there are others out there like me who are struggling with a diagnosis, struggling with doctors who don’t understand, struggling with family and friends who mean well but don’t ‘get it’… and if you are like me, you scour the blogosphere, the health boards, the forums and look for anyone who might possibly ‘get it’, or who might have some insight into why things are the way they are.

If any of these conditions exist for you, maybe someone will benefit from my story… if not, don’t feel obligated to read. This is just more about me, for me, put out there for whomever it might help.


It’s been about a couple of weeks now since I got a more detailed information about what is really wrong with my health. I’ve been on 60mg of Prednisone daily since then. Well, correction: I’ve been given up to 60mg I can take per day, but I’m not necessarily supposed to take that much if I don’t need that much. So I take 20mg in the morning, then dose in 5-10mg increments throughout the day as I need them. How I know I need them right now is tough: I wait until I have symptoms. That is, if I get shaky, feel pain, the nausea comes back, etc, then I know I need a dose. I take the smallest dose possible, then every 20 minutes I increase it by 2.5-5mg until the symptoms go away.

Unlike a diabetic who doesn’t make enough insulin and can measure blood sugar to see how much to dose, people who have adrenal insufficiency–not just adrenal fatigue or exhaustion but rather actual insufficiency (It’s called Addison’s Disease, but it’s part of a bigger issue called PGA-II – more on that later)–there is is no test I can do to see what my cortisol levels are immediately and adjust. So the only way I can dose is to see how I feel and know and trust that the medication does make the symptoms go away once I get it to the right dosage.

This means that I have to let myself feel bad sometimes in order to feel better.


That got me to thinking about life in general and how this is not any different...

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Book Review: School Days, by Robert B. Parker

I remember the Spenser for Hire series on television, but never watched it. In a way, I’m glad, since I’m just now making the connection to Spenser novels. Robert B. Parker definitely has a style, as many here have noted, that is short, choppy, and sometimes leaves you feeling as though you’ve missed out on knowing something that only the author/narrator can know, things that maybe should have been told to the reader. I always had the feeling while reading this book, School Days, that I was missing out on some inside information about the universe this book is set in...

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Book Review: Don’t Believe Everything You Think: The 6 Basic Mistakes We Make in Thinking (Paperback)

Cynical & Skeptical Don’t HAVE to be the Same Thing…,

… but in this book, they really are. I agree with the author: People prefer stories to statistics. I loved his stories in the book. I would get pulled into them, and then deflated when he ‘explains’ away any wonder that any moment might have had. The universe is full of wonder, whether it can be quantified, tested or explained makes no difference to the wonder. So where is the author’s wonder? Where is the faith and child-like belief that there is something bigger, greater and better than just ‘this’?

I am not new age, neither am I religious, and I wouldn’t exactly even call myself spiritual, but I do believe there are...

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Author Interview with Gabriel Constans

It’s rare today to find an author who does nothing but write for a living. Do you have a ‘real’ job other than writing, and if so, what is it? What are some other jobs you’ve had in your life?

Gabriel Constans: In addition to writing, I also work as a freelance journalist, edit other people’s material and provide individual and couple’s counseling a couple of days a week. In the past, I’ve worked as a social worker and grief counselor at Hospice; as a mental health consultant with people in prison and young people and as a chaplain at a community hospital. 

What compelled you to write your first book?

Gabriel Constans: My love to write and engage others in discussion about topics and issues that I found important and relevant.

Have you always wanted to be a writer?

Gabriel Constans: Ever since high school, when I founded, wrote and edited an alternative high school and community newspaper.

Tell us a little bit about your ...

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Book Review: HOUR GAME, by David Baldacci

Reading Hour Game, by David Baldacci, was like watching a train wreck as it happened, driving by, then turning around and coming back to sit on the side of the road and watch the recovery efforts. You want to walk away, to drive away, to put it behind you, but you sit there, staring forward, and find you can’t quite bring yourself to leave without figuring out what is going on.

That’s not to say the book sucked; it didn’t. The plot had some high points, and toward the end of the book, I find it much harder to put down and walk away from than the beginning, which really seemed to drag. The problem I had the most with the book was that there were some very unbelievable situations for me, situations that failed me at suspending my disbelief for this universe and these characters.

The second most annoying part of this book was that I I figured out who the main killer was very early on, and while that happens to me quite often, a really good book actually still manages to give me something I hadn’t expected. This one mostly failed to do that, because not only did I figure out the main killer, but I also managed to figure out a couple of subplots too. Not that I got to them the same way the main characters got to the answers, but my answers were right nonetheless, and the characters methods of getting there were a bit suspect to me. It was more like they were jammed in there, to try to make them fit, rather than letting things organically unfold.

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I found me! Update & Stuff

Okay, so for those who have been following my health saga, you probably know what’s going on with me. For those who haven’t, I’ll briefly update. I got a couple of diagnoses from different doctors, and none of them agreed with the other ones. It’s very frustrating when doctors can’t agree. How is a patient supposed to know what to do? One says to take steroids because I have Addison’s Disease, and he bases this decision on blood work and lab tests that clearly show my natural steroid level is low, and prescribes me steroids, then tests me again in a month and my natural steroids (cortisol) is still low, so he ups them again. Another looks at a middle aged overweight woman and without even looking at any blood work or lab tests, says there is absolutely no way I can have Addison’s Disease and to tells me to stop taking the steroids, immediately.

So I did. Not because I really wanted to, but because he ordered a second $500 ACTH stimulation test to try to prove to me that I don’t have Addison’s Disease. I stopped taking the pills the other doctor had given me to prove to him I do, because I know the ACTH stimulation test will be the same again if I take it. I knew it was right. Why in God’s name I didn’t stand up for myself and tell him that in the office I will never know. I think I was just defeated.


So I came off the steroids, and for three days...

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