Monthly Archives June 2016

It’s Always the Little Things

In 2011, I rushed to the hospital barely able to breathe with chest pains. When I got there, the lady doing the intake was quite rude–it’s one of those little things I remember–and while my best friend was trying to tell her what was wrong, she bluntly said, “I need HER to tell me, MA’AM.” It was quite curt. My friend said, “If she could breathe, she might be able to talk….”

Finally, I put my hand up and said, “Chest pains,” between breaths.

Suddenly, the room spun and everyone jumped. I was already in a wheelchair and they began pushing me to the back quickly and yelling at  my friend to follow while yelling ahead, “We have chest pains in 108!”

I jokingly say that if you want to get treated in the hospital ER quickly, ju...

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This is Who I Am

mirror-1548409The other morning, I sat in the bathroom, on the toilet, and stared at myself in the mirror. There isn’t much else to do on the toilet in this bathroom, you know, if you don’t bring your phone with you.  I’m not sure I was really using the toilet as much as I was still half asleep and didn’t want to actually stand up and move. I was leaning against the wall, and I think it was holding me up. Hell, I might even have fallen asleep. But when I when I’m awake and using this bathroom, I often avoid eye contact in the full wall mirror in behind the sink–yes, even with myself–so I don’t have to actually SEE myself.

Why? Because I hate the way I look.

And to be fair, if this is how I’d always looke...

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Why I Don’t Blog Much Any More

13423874_1073458316070045_6870175784010005492_nI was sitting here the other day wondering why it’s been so long since I’ve posted a blog. I was rummaging through my drafts–29 of them–in my posts thing over there <—- on the sidebar (no, you can’t see them), and wondering why I hadn’t ever finished the posts. So I went through and read some of the partially written posts and it finally hit me.

You see, with Facebook and the internet so readily available to almost everyone, connectivity is a big thing right now. And it’s a good thing, too, really, it is.

But there’s something very ‘exposing’ about that connectivity.

I’ll give you an example: Today, I got a letter in the mail from my ...

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